Apr 22, 2005

normal days

I've spent most of the last three days plugged with the standard plug. While it feels normal and sane to be wearing this plug long-term, there comes a point when I need something that will stretch me just a little more. I slept with the standard pug in last night and wore it all morning, took it out for some exercise today, then shoved it rather roughly back up my butt when I got home. (At this point, my asshole can usually accept the standard plug without hesitation or discomfort of any sort. I can pretty much slam it home, though sometimes I have to be gentler and in those cases, sitting down on it is better than shoving it up my ass.)

So right after dinner tonight, I got out Big Blackie, who hadn't seen the light of day in a week, at least. I lubed up as I usually do and sat on the edge of the tub, allowing my weight to do most of the work. Holding my cheeks apart and stretching my anus with my hands also helps and slowly...slowly...gradually...I could feel my anus open up and engulf the head of the buttplug. *schoop*...and finally I sigh in shear pleasure as one of my favorite buttplugs stretches my ass and finds its proper home in my heinie-hole. It's width is pretty good and except for its shortness, it makes a good subsitute for a cock; it feels like having a well-hung man's cock up the ass.

By the way, for those of you speculating on my orientation, assume nothing. I might be straight, I might be gay, I might be bi. Loving butt play and the feel of having your asshole stretched and stuffed really has little to do with orientation, if any.

I'm creating an Excel file that lists my toys and their various dimensions, materials, and my rating of them. When I find a way to upload it to here, I'll post a link.

Apr 19, 2005

An examination of dildos

Ah, what a great afternoon! I spent the night and morning sleeping with my sleeping plug in and awoke refreshed and happy. Now, as I type this, I have my biggest dildo up my ass, just stretching my anus open and testing how much length I can take.

I have several dildos in my collection, which I don't use so much for fucking (though they do get employed for that) as for ass plugging with an emphasis on depth and/or girth.

The advantage to dildos is that because they stretch the inner and outer sphincters to an equal size, the body isn't fooled into thinking it needs to take a shit. If anything, a dildo up the ass feels like one is taking a shit, particularly if you're fucking yourself and the dildo is on te outstroke. But we'll talk about ass-fucking later.

My first dildo was a 14" long 1.25" wide vibrator. It was hard plastic and I was rarely able to take more than six inches of it. That one has gone, but I still have four others. My absolute favorite is one I call Big Blue, and it is the once I consider my sleeping plug. It is sold specifically for anal play -- it has a flared base like a plug, but the body is all dildo -- smooth and straight. The tip is well-shaped for easy entry and the jellee material feels, in my experience, almost exactly like a real cock. It glides up one's ass so easily, the whole experience is a true pleasure. The size is substantial, though not too large -- about 6" x 1.5"

I also have a blue vibrator that has a textured silicone outside that's 8" x 1". Though too long to fit entirely up the butt easily, there is always that danger -- and it has no base to keep it from slipping too far.

My other two dildoes are cocks: one comes from an EZ-Rider kit and measures 1.25" wide and 6" long, down to the balls. It is very comfortable and feels great when I'm fucking myself with it. The other dildo I think of as the Meanie, or King Dong. It tests my limits, being 1.75 at its widest and 7" long to the balls. It has a suction cup base to make self-fucking easier. If I played with it more, perhaps my asshole and rectum would be able to accommodate its hefty proportions more easily, and I could graduate to even bigger toys.

But one thing at a time. The biggest barrier to larger toys is a natural built-in "stop" at the end of the recturm, where another sphincter transitions into the large intestine, I believe. This can be pushed through, but that will cause some pain. It is this natural barrier that causes anal sex to be painful for a lot of people -- men with short, thin cocks can console themselves by the fact that they're far more likely to talk their partner into anal sex than guys with long, thick weaponry.

I have found a way to overcome this barrier without force -- time! I discovered this fifteen years ago. I was enjoying a weekend alone in my dorm room, my roommate having gone away for the weekend and was leisurely fucking myself up the ass with the aforementioned hard plastic vibrator. I laid out on my bed in the afternoon sunshine and -- fell asleep. Several hours later, I woke up, still with my vibrator embedded in my ass. Somehow, it felt more comfortable than before. Gingerly, I tested and pushed to see if it would go in any further than previously -- and gradually I slid the entire fourteen inches up my ass!!

These days, I find that Big Blue causes some marginal discomfort when first inserted if I try to push it in all the way, so I push it in as far as is comfortable, strap it in place (more on dildo harnessing later) and go to bed. Within a few hours -- and certainly by next morning -- I am easily able to take the rest of it up my ass and have even pushed the entire object into my ass, holding on to the base. Wild!

This morning, I leisurely laid around with Big Blue in my rectum, enjoying the stretch it puts on my anus and its all around comfort, then I finally took it out about half an hour ago and took a dump. Then, testing to see if i could still take the depth of it, I experimented with my blue vibrator and found that I was able to take about seven or eight inches easily. So, going for a real training session, I slowly eased the Meanie through my asshole and up into my recturm. I have taken it balls-deep and sit now, typing this blog entry, with it lodged in my butt, balls pressed against my own, held in by my trussing system.

I have to go meet some people at 7:30 tonight and have some work to do in my home office today. I plan to eat some breakfast and take a shower, then get to work. I will keep the Meanie up my ass at least through breakfast and possibly through the shower. I will have to change to a toy without balls to get some work done this afternoon and then will consider one of my buttplugs proper for my trip into town. We'll see how my asshole feels and what I'm able to hold in with minimal help from straps. For certain, though, I'm going to spend all day plugged, which will take me well over 36 hours by the time I go to bed again.

Happy evening

I took a shower late today and decided mid-shower that I'd proceed to work with a buttplug up my ass tonight. Knowing I'd be there for some time, with no private restroom, and in close proximity with people who know me well and would probably have close-up views of my tightly jean-clad ass, I chose my most unobtrusive plug, the ComfortPlug. As I've noted, this plug was expressly built for long-term wearability.

After a whole night and morning without anything in my butt, and a very painful workout, sliding the bulge of the ComfortPlug past my sphincter was a warm and satisfying experience. As it slid home and seated itself, I noted again how easily worn the ComfortPlug is. In fact, by the time I'd made the trip to work, I'd completely forgotten I was wearing. Now and then, when I changed seats or moved around, I'd be pleasantly reminded. Even after work, during some socializing and an hour spent chatting with a coworker at her car, having my plug in was so very pleasant in a nearly-non-intrusive kind of way.

I got home just a few minutes ago, and changed up for the Standby. Longer, thicker, still comfortable, particularly sitting on the couch typing up a blog entry. Tonight might be a fullly plugged night.

I find it interesting that I've grown so used to buttplugs being a normal part of daily wear -- or at least a portion of the day's wear -- that I often have one or more buttplugs sitting out on the counter in the bathroom air-drying. As I live alone, this wouldn't bother me in the slightest, except that I know my landlord enters my apartment unannounced when I'm gone. I know this because she moves things around, like scotting my doorstops against the wall and whatnot. It is reasonable that she sometimes uses my bathroom. I have a remarkably clean bathroom for a man -- bare porcelain everywhere, all toiletries put away in the cabinet with only a single pump of hand-soap on the sink to even indicate someone lives here. Except for air-drying anal toys, that is. If my landlord has been confronted by these, she hasn't said anything. After all, I'm a good tenant and the rent comes on time -- why should she make a fuss?

Hey, maybe I should get a few items from eroticglassart.com and spread them about the house?

Apr 16, 2005

A little about my history and my "starting lineup"

I've been putting things in my ass ever since I can remember. Yes, even since I was five, at least. My whole childhood, I kept an eye out for the next thing to try in my asshole and see how it feels. I don't think it was sexually motivated at first -- though sex games eventually crept in -- much like most of my use of buttplugs isn't sexual now.

I dinstincly remember using up way too many Q-tips a few times when I was seven, pushing them one-at-a-time into my asshole, side-by-side, to see how many I could fit. Looking in my parents full-length mirror, I like the way the heads of the q-tips protruding from my anus looked a little like a flower. Even at that age, the link between plugging and anal stretching was firmly planted. (As opposed to plugging in order to have a feeling of fullness, which is the primary motivation for many people.)

Later one, perhaps by the time I was nine, I remember playing sex games with the neighbor children and clearly remember having anal sex several times with another little boy who lived a few houses away. I'd put my thing in his butthole and he'd put his thing in mine. Either way, it felt like heaven to me. (I didn't manage to talk the girls into this.) That all ended a couple years later when he informed me that such activities were "gay". I had no idea what the word meant.

My anus filling adventures have continued to this day. It is only within the last three or four years that I've graduated to working on being buttplugged all day every day. More on this later.

My lineup of toys currently includes a wide range. A visit to any sex shop, either in real life or online, will present the shopper with a confusing array of toys intended for the butt. In fact, the prevelance of butt-toys makes me believe that there have to be thousands of people with my particular lifestyle kink, as well as millions of people having a great time in the bedroom. After all, there's nothing wrong with anal play, especially with careful attention to sanitation, which you should be doing anyway.

My oldest toy is one of my standards and I've had it for about fifteen years. I purchased it not long after I became old enough to walk into a sex-shop and buying it was, for me, the point-of-no-return. It is a beige-colored plug, 6" long overall, with a bulge width of 1.5" and a neck width of 1". The shape is very comfortable, though sometimes it feels a little long. The base is round, and I have an issue with that, as my skin can get pinched too easily by it. It has a silicone core, with a durable, more plastic, outer covering that cleans very easily. I like this plug a lot because its a perfect medium size (width) and I can wear it for hours and hours. I call this one my Old Standby.

However, the neck and bulge differential isn't enough for it to stay in me as I walk around IF I've previously been fucking myself with a dildo. I get too loose and then can't create enough natural "grip" to keep it in.

So one of my next purchases (a few years later) was a small one called the ComfortPlug. This is a real little beauty, fashioned specifically to be very comfortable for a very long time. It has a definite bulg, but a thin, longer neck, so that the two sphincters of the anus aren't fooled into a feeling of fullness (and thus always needing to take a shit). The neck is maybe a 1/2" across while the bulge is a bout an inch and a quarter. The base is long and narrow, fitting neatly between my legs and even has little pull handles built in, which can be a helpful feature. More importantly, it has a channel drilled down the center for voiding gas -- a BIG plus if one eats the wrong food. (This can be noisy, though...so I don't wear this one at work.) Finally, the material is a nice firm rubber without too much give, but not hard as a rock, either. I'll always refer to this one as the ComfortPlug in succeeding entries.

The plug I reach for the most, including usually during/post shower and for movie watching, is Big Blackie. She's not actually all that big; just wide. She's shaped like a very round doorknow, with the bulge stretching me open two and a half inches before narrowing down to a neck of 1 1/2". While not long, this one is of a good anus-stretching neck width and is soft black rubber. It is a little difficult to get in, though practice teaches you to bear down while inserting any plug so that it will go in easier. Big Blackie is, in fact, the buttplug I'm wearing right now.

I have a single vibrating plug, a common one that's of red jelee with a bullet vibrator lodged in the midddle. This plug has a very nice tip, allowing easy entry, though the main body is a challenging series of ribs that go all the way down to the base. This is not a plug to be worn while walking around, though with good anal grip, I can -- the ridges help. It is very soft and feels wonderful in my asshole -- particularly on medium vibe. I often use this one to loosen me up for a dildo fucking session or to return to a larger plug after an extended period of small plugs.

I also own a very expensive clear glass buttplug that is my second biggest. It is 2 1/2" at its widest. This plug can easily be worn walking around the house, but never outside -- the base is enormous and, being glass, the whole thing is rigid. It is made optically correct and by viewing through the base, one's insides can be examined quite easily.

My biggest buttplug is one related to Big Blackie, though 50% bigger. It is over 3" across and I cannot get it in my asshole -- my pelvis simply isn't wide enough. Perhaps someday I'll be able to take this one, but not right now. I keep it as a reminder of what could be.

I also have a slew of dildo-style butt-toys, which I will cover in another post.

Apr 3, 2005


Welcome to one of the web's most daring blogs -- Buttpluglover's notes about the way to live life with a piece of rubber up your butt and assorted related items.

I am just one of hundreds, maybe thousands, of people who were buttplugs regularly -- not for sexual gratification, but because they make me feel good. I aspire to a lifestyle of wearing buttplugs 24/7/365. While this isn't practical, I gradually do move closer and closer to that goal. At present, I spend almost all my time at home with a plug in my ass, including anywhere from one to five nights a week during sleep. I often wear a buttplug when running errands or shopping and always when going to the movies. I have worn a buttplug to work a couple of times, but as succeeding posts make clear, this can be problematic. I have also worn my smallest buttplug while exercising -- but haven't made a habit of it.

In this blog, I intend to cover the thousand myriad details of a pluggers lifestyle, including health issues, safety issues, training, and, of course, a lot about the handy little devices themselves. I've decided to approach this without a whole of rhyme or reason, throwing in my thoughts as I go.

One thing you can be certain of, reader, is that when I post to this blog, I have a buttplug wedged firmly between my cheeks, making my life a little happier. So read on and don't hesitate to email if you have questions.