Dec 22, 2007

gearing up for Christmas

Well, one of my readers, whom I've been talking with quite a bit over the last few months, sent me a Tantus Tulip large for Christmas.

Wasn't that nice of her? She is determined to teach me the art of the anal orgasm. I'm not sure I'm capable of that, but I'm sure as hell game for trying!

While looking on the Tantus website, I came across this:

I took one look and my rectum clamped down tight around the large Severin already in my ass. I went to bed last night with the large anal dilator in my butt - but I couldn't last the night with it. For some reason, I can't take that one for longer than four or five hours. So this morning I switched up to the Severin and have been enjoying that as I worked today. Tomorrow is also more work, so probably more continuous buttplug experience.

I'll be travelling for Christmas to see family. This will involve a couple hours of flight and a couple hours of driving, and I'm considering leaving home plugged and just stop at a gas station just before arriving at my destination to unplug for the duration of my stay. It would certainly make the whole trip a lot more pleasant!

Dec 15, 2007

counting down the days 'til Christmas

Well, the holiday season is just flying right by. I have no real news - hence to posts lately - though I did have a couple stretches of wearing the large Severin buttplug for almost 48 hours. It gets very hard to wear past 24 hours, mostly due to the pinching the base causes. That part could have been designed better, certainly. In between using the Severin plug, I've been using the large anal dilator a lot.

Interestingly, I got out a couple of older toys tonight for some shower play. One was a crystal-clear medium size dong buttplug that I think I've only used once before - I bought it on a trip when I hadn't brought along any toys and I was getting desperate. It's OK, but not really FILLING.

So I opted for King Dong instead when in the shower. I don't know what it is about fucking myself in the ass in the shower, but it really is quite nice. When I'm done - and done washing as well - I feel clean inside and out. Very satisfying.

Nov 22, 2007

No Country For Pinching Buttplugs

I really like the large Severin plug - I can wear it for about 12 hours before my body wants a break from it. I put it in about 2 p.m. today, so sometime in the middle of my sleep, I will probably have to wake up and take it out for the rest of the night. I'm trying to shorten my rest periods, too. The Severin really is a buttplug one could wear 24/7 if one got accustomed to it.

I do have two issues with it, though. One is that my body seems to reject it after some time - as in, it's like an allergic reaction and my asthma will get a little worse. I've done this enough that I'm pretty sure the slightly worse asthma is tied to long wearing of this buttplug. It doesn't happen with my plastic anal dilators. Perhaps it is the material the Severin is made of? That I've got a slight sensitivity to it? I don't worry about it too much because it's not like I get itchy or rashes or swollen sinuses or anything.

The other issue is that the base can pinch! I find it helps to apply a little bit of lubricant between the base of the plug and my cheeks - but that doesn't solve the pinching 100%. Oh, the plug is fine when I'm standing or walking, but sitting, especially on hard surfaces like the subway seats, can be a problem. Not sure what to do about it, though.

Still, I have had a nice Thanksgiving with my Severin buttplug. I wore it out to the movies tonight and watched the very good No Country For Old Men. I didn't think ahead well enough, and got trapped where I was sitting. Couldn't really cross eight people to get out mid-movie, you know - but jeez I really had to piss by the end of that flick! Not to mention adjust my buttplug to relieve some of the pinching. I finally got to do all that in the bathroom. I had to wait for a stall, of course, because even if I hadn't needed to adjust my buttplug, I was wearing stockings and garters and my underwear is sports-style - no flap in front. I really didn't want to bare the garter for all to see at the urinals, you know?

As for the movie: two thumbs up! Just the kind of fare one expects from the Cohen brothers, though the ending is ambiguous enough that it will bother some people. Personally, I've got a new role model, but I won't say who.

Nov 20, 2007

Mmmm...been sitting on my fat anal dilator most of the day, not even real horny, just enjoying the vibe.

Stumbled around on the net today. Found Interesting site, especially You'll probably have to create an account to go there, but accounts are free and they're not asking you for your full name. Lots of adult groups going on there. I've seen references to a, but didn't get that to take me anywhere. Perhaps that group got closed.

I also found this video, which had me nearly peeing with laughter:

ah...cut and paste, you lazy assholes.

Yeah, I know there've been no new pics recently. So sorry; just need some alone time, you know?

Nov 15, 2007

When the unusual becomes the usual

You know that your strange and illicit habits involving anal lubrication have become a normalized, boring norm in your life when, groggy from sleep, you stumble into the bathroom, grab your toothbrush, and promptly squirt KY jelly onto the brush. Now what was I going to do with that? Brush my teeth, or shove the brush up my ass?

Oct 24, 2007

Can't wait for this one!

Monk is about to start offering some awesome steel toys. If they're anything like this one:

You can bet I'll be lining up to buy. It's not that I want to be actually suspended by my asshole, but the look of that thing just makes me want to shove it up my ass. End of story.

Oct 15, 2007

Sep 23, 2007

butt-plugging as a reward

I just got back about an hour ago from a nice Sunday afternoon jog. I've mentioned before that I like to get a little exercise now and then, and that I've even gone for short jogs with a buttplug in my ass - the Purple Pucker in particular.

Now, I don't regularly jog buttplugged...I just don't think it wise...but I do use my buttplugs as a reward for doing a good job and putting in a good effort. I ran a little longer than planned today and ended the run going faster than when I began - what real runners call "negative splits". (Negative is positive in this case, I guess.) So as soon as I got home, I lubed up the Severin II and slowly sat down on it, easing my asshole around the two large bumps and feeling the rush as it seated itself and my anus closed down to the roughly 1" diameter neck. (Yes, it's the same buttplug as pictured in my previous post.)

I then proceeded to get some chores done, including talking to some neighbors about their apartment hunt (are they crazy? trying to find a cheap apartment in New York within an hour's commute of Manhattan NOW is like finding a needle in a haystack - students snapped 'em all up back in June and July). I've been really enjoying my little reward, walking around, indoors and out, plugged and happy. I may take a walk to the grocery store later, too. Too bad the liquor store isn't open - I'm out of rum.

Anyway, sometimes during my jogs, when its really hard to keep going, I'll promise myself some good anal play IF I do x, y, or z. Such as, "run all the rest of the way w/ no walking and you may fuck yourself with King Dong in the shower" or "tack on a extra half-mile and you can sleep with the Severin in your ass tonight instead of the regular one." These kinds of things.

I've noticed amongst my reading other people's blogs, that some masters hold out anal stimulation to their slave/puppies/ponies as a reward or a punishment. I guess it depends on the submissive! There's often talk of this on

Speaking of which...I think I'll get caught up there tonight - haven't read that board in months...

So now I have a couple more chores to do, then I will actually take a shower and get the sweat and dirt from chores off me. I was going to assfuck myself in the shower, but the Severin is so comfortable, I may just leave it in and not worry about it.

Sep 16, 2007

Field testing

So I "field tested" the Severin II buttplug tonight, going to the movies. Here's what I wore, plus jeans and shirt, of course. Also spent some time playing around in Photoshop. Click for bigger.

Sep 15, 2007

This can't be good

This new service from blogger lets you see everyone's photos as they post them! Very big brother, if you ask me. And tho the instructions mention an adult-picture filter, how could can it possibly be? What if I take a picture of my cack and title it "puppies and ponies"? What if the filter is looking for a certain percentage of the image to be skin-tones, but my cack pic is of just my willy sticking out my bluejeans? I'm not going to intentionally try to defeat the filter, but I have a concern that people who don't WANT to see my little butt with a colorful wad of silicone jammed up it WILL.

Sep 10, 2007

stuffed and trussed like a Christmas turkey

Wow, I haven't posted since August 20th? Bad blogger! Bad! Go shove a chunk of rubber up your ass for the next 12 hours!

I've been insanely busy - I don't know that I'll ever get back to a comfortable 9-5 routine, so blogging will tend to be sporadic. Perhaps things aren't all bad, though. I spent all of last night with my fattest anal dilator up my butt, held in with my little string truss thingie and I slept comfortably the whole night. It's been a long time since I woke up with THAT big boy in my asshole and the sheer comfortableness of it was wonderful.

I got up, pooped, plugged with the Severin II and am now sitting quite happily with that one filling my rectum.

Daily Plug wrote in to show off this picture:

Outstanding. I like it when people write to me and send me their pics, plugged. It lets me know I'm not just speaking into the aether.

Aug 20, 2007

renewing the stretch

I'm sitting around happily buttplugged tonight. The temperature outside is down and so's the humidity, so my A/C is off and my windows are open, with the venetian blinds down. Hearing people 30 feet away while sitting around my house naked with an ass-cork is rather arousing.

But I took SO much time off from plugs that I am having to retrain myself almost from scratch. For anyone who's ever asked if a plug or taking it up the ass will permanently stretch their asshole... NO. Believe me, it gets tight again. Feels like tighter than ever.

I have my medium dilator in my ass right now. And though my rectum is begging for the large one, just screaming for something longer and thicker, my anus is all like, "whoa there, big boy, let's take it easy." My anus keeps contracting around the neck of the dilator like I'm some kind of anal virgin.

Oh, well. I have all the time in the world.

This is me wearing my new Severin II buttplug.

Aug 6, 2007

I'm back!

I just got back yesterday from an extended vacation, during which there was absolutely no plugging. In fact, not even enough time for masturbation. In five weeks, I masturbated exactly three times. I was just too busy and there were always people around.

So you can imagine my joy at coming home and relaxing with my buttplug collection. Inserting my favorite one, the fat anal dilator, was like being greeted by an old friend, only it had been so long, I felt like a virgin. I'm sitting on the dilator again tonight and I swear it feels even bigger than last night's short session. I hope to wear it to bed tonight.

Got this email today from an anonymous poster:


My lover and I want to try wearing anal plugs on a daily basis. The trouble we are having is finding a plug that is discrete enough to allow us to wear while at work, or just out and about with little impact on clothing, etc.

Can you recommend a type or brand of plug that works well for everyday use?


Well, Anonymous, you might want to look for the Purple Passion (seen in my medicine cabinet a post or two ago), the Tristan, or the Severin. The ComfortPlug is also pretty good, if you can find it, but some people actually find it too small. I would not suggest a metal plug because it is inflexible and even though the neck is small, the plug is heavy enough to be a problem for an untrained asshole. (I'm thinking of the small metal plugs marketed as anal jewelry - while they are very nice and might be fun for home use, I can't see wearing one all day without risk of slippage.) You'll also want to practice using and inserting your plug with a minimum amount of lube; this helps with retention. Ultimately, you may have to try out several medium-sized plugs before finding one comfortable enough for extended wear. And don't forget to do dry runs AT HOME before wearing to work. Try wearing for an evening, then all night, then all day on a weekend, etc.

Good luck.

Jun 4, 2007

First times and last times

I know that the first posts of my blog state that I won't go into my sexuality, and that later posts, I say I'm bisexual. The truth is, I don't really know. I am powerfully attracted to the opposite sex, but not so powerful, it seems, as my fellow men, especially the ones who spend all weekend, every weekend in bars, picking up women they don't know, getting laid. The getting laid part must be fun, but - let's face it - I have a hard enough time getting along with people as it is and taking women I don't know to bed just seems weird.

Then there's the other side of the coin, the part of me that absolutely feels sexually attracted to other men in certain circumstances. Not nearly as many circumstances as with women, but I know what turns me on in guys - unfortuantely, I am a PICKY. And to that end have had some brief relationships that never went beyond kissing and heavy petting. I have never had receptive anal sex. Yeah, I know how hypocritical that must sound coming from me, but it's true.

Except. For. Once. One short period of my life.

I think I related this story before, but it remains a fact that the first time I had sex at all was when I was eight and it was with the neighbor boy up the block, who was about 12, I think. Anyway, he and I would go out to the woods behind our house and fool around. And by fool around, I mean hump each other. In the butt. He'd bring butter and we'd have a good time. I distinctly remember the very first time I felt the rubbery tip of his cock touching my asshole and then penetrating me; how extraordinarily good it felt. And I also remember reciprocating in short order - the first time I lined my little cock up with another person's asshole, leaned forward, and slid into the tight, slippery warmth of Greg's butt. (Oh, yeah, that was his name; Greg.) I remember the delicious cushion of his ass cheeks against my hips - our fucking was always with the person on the bottom laying flat, face down - sort of a modified missionary position I guess. Our trysts were quick and somewhat furtive. We weren't rushed, exactly, but the danger of discovery was real.

Then came the day when I we were playing on my family's swingset and I wondered why we hadn't done that fun thing in the woods in a while. I made sure no-one was around, then asked him about it. He feigned ignorance and I had to be explicit about what I wanted. He said he didn't want to do that anymore, only "fags" did that. So that's where I simultaneously learned a) what a fag was, and b) that it was something to be ashamed about.

Only the shame didn't take. It was years before I returned to boys, and by then, they'd grown up into men - men who were in a hurry, wanted only one thing, who didn't kiss well, who acted like smarmy...well, MEN. Oh, I've found a few exceptions. Laid back, interesting guys who didn't crank the "let's have sex" dial up to 11 in the first 15 minutes. But they are few and far between.

In the meantime, my sex drive continued unabated. I masturbated a LOT as a child - I think most kids do, but I know my frequency was perhaps abnormal. I also played doctor with the neighborhood girls a lot. This was beyond showing each other our parts - I had anal sex with both the neighbor girls, one my age, one three years older. I want to stress that none of us thought we were doing anything wrong and that it was all consentual. Though I masturbated a lot, I never initiated sex play as a child - the girls did! The nine year old, Cathy, dragged me, literally, into those same woods one misty Friday and proceeded to get bossy with me. Her sister, the 12 year-old, cornered me in a downstairs bathroom in my house one summer afternoon.

I guess what I'm saying is that I find the question of childhood sexuality fascinating, because I was there, I KNOW kids are sexual beings - given the freedom to do so. We were practically nudists in my family, so there was no shame about our bodies. I suspect things were similar in Kathy's family. No, I don't think there was adult-child molestation happening in any of this.

So there are interesting questions arising in the news these days, what with the rash of "female teacher fucks underage student" news flashes. It has exposed a double-standard - the vast majority of people would say this is, somehow, OK, because after all, if we were young and a teacher had taken such an interest in us, would we have turned it down? Well, yes, possibly. We need to look at each case and ask if the sex was consentual or coerced. It really isn't that hard to define those terms and to discern in each case what was what. There is no one set of rules of thumb that will sort out all cases - we must bring intelligence to the table. In many cases, the student and the teacher formed powerful, loving, mutual relationships; why should we tear that apart just because the rough facts of the picture - age - are similar to other, abusive, relationships?

What of the cases of male teachers and female students? Hey, in my high school, it was well known which female students were fucking which male teachers; and not for money or grades, but just because they weren't the immature shitheads teenage boys are.

My point here is that we as a nation have to approach these questions of legislating sexuality in a much more intelligent, discerning fashion than we historically have. The problems and questions aren't going to get easier just because we keep passing laws. And now some of the new laws are creating problems of their own. Where a 13-year-old and 14-year-old can both go to jail for doing some heavy petting on a date! Where a 15-year-old can get arrested under child pornography laws because she took a cellphone picture of herself naked! This is retarded. And we, in the sexually active and sexually adventurous, have to stand up and say, "Hey, you! Yeah, you, the sexually repressed ones - why are YOU making the laws, when you have no real grasp of the subject matter you're attempting to pass laws regarding? WE should be making the laws, for we can discern what is criminal and what is not easier than you; we can act from a base of EXPERIENCE, whereas you act merely on the suggestions of expert witnesses, who, likely as not, are as repressed and inexperienced as you are."

Shit. I should probably not even publish this post. The very mentions of "child pornography" and "I got buttfucked when I was eight" will probably have me on the FBI's watch list. Or maybe they'll come arrest me for breaking a law passed in 2006 way back in 1979. They've been doing that, by the way; oh, yes, they have. Under this administration, our legal protections are being eroded, our privacies done away with, and even the simple freedom of expression is in danger of becoming a footnote in the history books (probably filed under "dangerous and criminal notions", since the history books will be written by the winners, remember). I wonder when, or if, this will all turn around. I wonder if, by allowing unwarranted wire-tapping, suspension of basic human rights and legal protections in "enemy combatant" cases, and the like - if we've just used the Constitution as toilet paper? And even though the Democrats pretty much have the next election in the bag, I have never trusted Democrats to be particularly effective at restoring freedoms, managing the country, or getting much done. They think and act independently and thus can't act as a concentrated unit like the Republicans. Catch-22.

Enough of this shit for now. More later, I'm sure.

Jun 2, 2007

Please welcome AbB

Folks, please welcome AbB as a guest author on this blog. I do not know when, or even if, she'll post, but it will help keep these interesting while I continue to be overwhelmed at work.

May 18, 2007


Got a little time last week to play around with one of those 8 oz Coke bottles. It felt VERY nice! Have to be careful with it, though; don't want to wind up in the ER with an embarassing story.

Pointy end first:

Fat end first, halfway there:

Fat end first, all the way up my ass. My rectum feels good wrapped around that solid chunk of glass:

Feb 8, 2007

Planning a trip and a new plug

Okay, so I went searching for something that would really stretch my asshole to the limits. After spending a couple of days on a weekend wearing my large dilator and sitting on the Triple Ripple, I took some short naps with the 10oz bottle up my ass. That stretches me and is pretty close to my physical limits, but it doesn't go RIGHT TO the limit. (I hope to spend a whole night with the bottle up my ass pretty soon.) So I went shopping. I picked up a green plastic tumbler - the diameter at the bottom is equal to the 10oz bottle, and then the tumbler widens as you go up - or in this case as it goes up my ass. But I haven't tried it yet, I need to sand down the rather sharp bottom edge of the cup.

I also picked up a little dry snacks two-compartment container that is as wide as my 10oz bottle and then gets progressively wider in gradual ripples. It doesn't have any sharp edges (except at the rim, the part AWAY from my asshole) so...I gave it a shot. I managed to get it about 2/3 of the way up my ass. My butthole was stretched so wide, I could barely walk to get the camera setup.

Also, I am planning a hiking trip in a couple of months. I'm not going to say where, but other reports on the web say it's a great place to be able to get out and hike in the nude and not see another person all day, while still being able to get a cellphone signal in case of emergency. To that end, I have purchased a comfortable soft-frame pack and am getting used to wearing one of my oldest large butt-toys, the clear acrylic buttplug. At some point, I will be hiking the small mountains absolutely naked except for boots, buttplug, and backpack, and hope to get some self-pics at the time. In the meantime, here's a "dress rehearsal".